'Oh, darling I've been thinking about you
And you are thinking how much farther it was
It's filling up our lives'

this rain has the pressure in my brain building. so i took an excedrin to forget this horrible day. its been the worse 2 days ive yet to live. i dont understand why my job fucks with my head... then i meet this guy. and he's fuckin with my head so i decided to fuck his mind up. to be honest i dont give two shits about his advice or his friendship. im cold to the bone when i get shoved off like nobodies business... i tend to reciprocate the favor to some disposition. besides. wheres the fire? im in no hurry to make new friends. they're hard to maintain as it is!. . . guh. . .
i miss the cold weather. i spent this morning with creep and we laid in bed talking and cuddling. those small but wonderful moments that seem to be the tape that holds hearts in place. its nice to be in love. it was the only good part of today i missed it so much when it was over. i just wanted to sleep there forever in his company. im so lucky when it comes down to it. i dont know what he sees in me. deep down im still a very angry soul but somehow he purifies that one part of me. i guess those chemical reactions occur. and i guess it just leaves me in a dopey happy state. sighs.

i promise to upload something soon. im working on a piece. its coming along but i want to take my time. sorry.